I know that you’re not ok,
But I’ve been doing my best to help,
And at the same time I’ve been desperately trying,
To reinvent myself.
Are you thinking like I am,
And does it keep you awake at night?
How you could use a real man,
I bet you’re sick of little boys.
I’m getting sick of saying words,
And you always see things for the worst.
I’m getting tired of watching your eyes glaze over,
When I try to explain myself.
‘Cause any less will just never do,
When you need someone like I need you.
I’ll make you miss everything we had,
If you can see past my attention span.
I can never stay in the same place,
‘Cause I’m afraid of being known.
And I’ve got so much left to tell you,
But there’s so much that you’ll never know.
And I keep pushing you away,
And I know one day that you’ll go.
Leave me with the emptiness that I made,
And I’ll die waiting by the phone.
And if I make it out of my room,
I’ll look for you.
I hear you picked a moving day,
And I picked the wrong day for cold feet.
I tried this once before,
And it took everything I had from me.
Against better judgement I’d start again,
And find someone that I could call a friend.
The only person that I know,
Who loves me,
That doesn’t have to.
Fuck it let’s get married and we’ll run away together,
We’ll have tiny little jobs,
And a city apartment,
And I’ll never have to say goodbye again.
As long as the city Summer breeze,
Blows through those white curtains.
released November 19, 2014
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